time which is running out before i self-destruct.time i wasted convincing myself i was not that good.i entered the "rehab" and came out a "recovered addict". now im much better after all the bullsh!t and crap you've put me through.time's up.

today was another stupid energy-less day again.lately,my nighttime sleeping schedule didnt go as planned.but its not like i have a schedule anyway.today maths test,its ok-ok,finished last min.eng,mind-mapping time.chinese,go thru compos.science,*yawns* **dont care much**,last topic before exam.ict, geometer and graphy thing.how could today be one of the most yawns day.by the way,i have fell in love with radio station,again.98.7 fm so rockss.when i was real down,i kept laughing cus of radio.now i know why my alarm clock so precious . anyway.lets see wat made me laugh today.i only can remember two. no.1,asri.dont get me wrong if i say this arhs.ASRI IS CUTE!ok,i said it.but no,i dont have a crush on him.he just reminds me of teddy bears.hahaha.lastly,jacob teasing me of touching my hair too much.it was like after recess,then jacob ask me why i keep touch my hair.then he start copy my actions.urgh.oh yah,sooo funny horhs.EE-YUH.then after ict,jacob and cheng en do the same.WTF.very funny.

now i know that i honestly do have a bad habit of touching my hair.but who cares.its my "natural talent"LOL.enough said.this sundaye goin to rat's party.its gonna be great.yanyan promise take silly pics with me.LOL.dunnope.hahah

letting loose on the weekend,
nicole;)))

between them,i chose reality.fantasy is something you dream and desire for.reality is a fact that can never be burned.its not like this block road was hidden behind the bushes;we were just too plain stupid to notice it all.

today began like any other day.except it did rain today.so hurrahs for that.this few days slept late cus of tv.or maybe i just dint wanna sleep?perhaps.yep.dont know why but i just cant seem to focus on study and revision.why cant i just study well.i ALWAYS revise at last min.and nope,that aint good.so much for trying to be a guai kia.and bad news.new seating arrangement is horrid.why did miss neo put me in the front row.hey,im not that short.and i do pay attention in class(um,not really,considering i rest my head at least 5 times a day in sch).yup.still,no reason why.and you had to stick me with that boon hiang.hian.watevs.doesnt matter,nicole endures pain.she shall not worry about the little missy.i mean dude.lol.

today.typical day.got quite a lot hw.i dont get it.give us holidays yet give us homework.wats the point.dont give us freakin damn hw if you want us to have a good holiday.geesh.but today the highlight and up-lifting part of today was my after-school time with my sjab seniors.i totally dread sjab.but today was one of the damn freakin best ones.got two sec2 need pass their CPR test.at first i was the waht,demonstrative person.then mr pan make me do almost every action for CPR.ahem.im no pro,im blur and i lagging. then all of them laugh at my blurness.aiyohs.no psitive.but it was freakin funny when mr pan ask me to blow into dummy.i keep hesitate.then i think was hou an ask me i no blow balloon.then i was like"no i never blow balloon before".i mean i did.but failed.all the time.and i was damn embarassed.got like all the basketball guys see.then im so sotong.i dont even like to eat sotong.but it made me less emo,ya'know.we were laugh soo much.no regrets for today.at the end,i took the CPR test too.and i passed.got above 6o plus upon 85.and hey,i feel freaking genius.damn happy.one step to being promote lance.heheh;D

anway shall end here.freaking frustrated.oh great.wth i keep using "freaking".anyways,yep,shall rest for tomoro.

BOOO,
nicole;))

no.not literally.

YAYY!i feel like LOL-ing forever.joking,joking.i did it!i change blogskin on my own.not much prob.havnt put in music though.and there's the weird name which goes with the end of my post.YAY.so happy.*claps happily* **embarassed at her lame-ness*

today,nothing much.woke up 11am.today is SEPTEMBER 11.dont you know huhhuhhuh.LOL.after breakfast go grandmother house,visit her.my fringe longer.i was thinking of changing my fringe but wait awhile first.hopefully go back school wont get caught during hair checks.still have chinese compo,xi zi,science paper and art to do.haiis.dont know if i lost chinese textbook.but no way im buying a new one if i did lose it.cus there's waht,only few chapters left?!

anyway,hopefully finish homework in time.half-no-not really looking forward to school re-open.

night in the afternoon,
nicole;))))))))

yup.im a happy person.we are happy people.i hope.

today.wasnt really one of the best days.no,not that i got in trouble.nope,not having heavy-emo day.nope.more like semi-sick.started few days ago,got throat problems then turn into flu/running nose.now a bit better.but see first.you know,its not that bad. hmm,not bad.anyway,woke up 8 like that,actually can make it in time for geog sup.but then i dont know why,today take so long to get out of house.when finally left house,mummy came home then she was like"why you havent leave house??!" sorta thing.took 945 bus to sch.took geog sup.i sotong,go check 2T1 class,no have.went downstairs then rmb its 1T2 class.second level.URGH.

after geog sup,home and showered then went to bukit batok int.wait then found yl and her friend.we went there took neoprints and play little games.then went to mac for lunch.yl and her friend so pretty.then go with yl cut her new hair.congrats,yan.you just became a BANGSTER.ok i didnt mean that she is a gangster with bangs,but yeah,yl,you are a bangster;DDDDthen go her house,got snacks,use comp.then i go home.walked from bus int to home,alone.should have enjoyed the nearly-night sky instead of sweating.urghs.next time.

live.love.laugh,
nicole;)))

what am i jelous of?almost everything.but i throw all those sh!t away.cus jealousy cures nothing.

these week like dont know what.just hate everything these days.everyday i want more,everyday i want less.and tonight just felt it,i want to SCREAM!!!!!!!!dont know why.i dont get what is it with perfection.i hate perfection.but there are just that many times when i try super hard to be perfect.i feel wasted.oh wait.thats not the right term.yup,but i feel wasted.school holidays start.and i know what its going to be like, HOMEWORK,REVISE,SCHOOL,COMP,TV or FRIENDS.and thats sad.bcus i know revise is what im forced to do.suddenly that feeling comes again. I WANT TO GO BACK TO AUSTRALIA,I WANT TO BE ALONE.I WANT TO BE ANYWHERE BUT HERE,FOR NOW.yup.just cant take it.im cold.why is it when i want rain,it gives me sunshine,and when i want sunshine,it gives me rain.shoot.im emo-ing.but who cares.no one.even seein my bffls might not cure.sorry drea and yan.

want to dance,ahaha.thats waht happens when nicole feels cold.she wants to do the most outrageous and stupidest things,but to no avail due to parents obstruction.i could really use a horror movie right now.like THE FINAL DESTINATION.even though i heard it sucks,its better than nothing.but the stupid cinemas had to put it M18.where can like that.wahtever.watched PROM NIGHT already.dont want watch it again.TWILIGHT...not creepy enough.shoot.no horror movies watch.and thats cus my 'rents dont like me watching violent stuff.ugh.ughh.UGH.

ohkaye.nicole's done emo-ing.

when good girls go bad,
nicole;)))

hmph.toiletpaper makes me crazier.everyone around me makes me crazier.and soap makes me crazier.alcohol will be next--in years to come;DD

Mon-daee

i woke up a bit more earlier.for special occassions wake up early waht.then i went to school.without any bag.weird.went there,go class.then in class chat here,there.went to parade square.then hall do romanian dance for ACES workout.recess,CFT.no party but got take pics.then T'CHERS DAY CONCERT!!!!!!!very nice.dominic sing sooo good;Dothers also sing nice.then 'chers cut cake.after concert,rush home.

home.took backpack and t'chers gifts.i went to bt batok int.met with yl bffl.we took 941 and go bubble tea shop.buy drinks,went playground.i felt cheered up,dunno why.its bcus,bcus,bcus....ILOVEMYPEPS!cant help it waht.then went outside sch gate 4.its damn crowded.then bunch of boys tease me.ugh.then wait for waht,half hour or more than can go in.sasw so many ex peps ppl.all change.some,no.joel got grow tall.zoe jiejie bcum soo chiobu.qinyu also pretty.rachel t. also pretty;Deveryone prettypretty.even the boys;PPP

go inside school go see mr choy and mr adib.then chatchat.go mrs lynette tan classroom give her gifts.sad cannot chat cus she teaching,doesnt matter;DDgo back chat with mr choy.wanted give mrs han gifts but she no0 there.doesnt matter.go canteen.caleb keep say i cute hair.WOW."thank you!!!!" oh haha.then go back playground.reminded of old times.i felt sad.PEPS is like my second home.and the playground was our hangout.so touching.then took 941 back.waiting,saw hani.did small talk then when he going,he said i look like RETARD. WTH.watever.

To-daee
woke up,got a call.thanks for waking me up.then after breakfast,i begged yl to let me go her house cus no one else house go.guilty cus she busy wit hw.heheh.then i bathed and changed.wore new blue shorts and white tee.put on blue cardigan cus raining and its cold.COLD.took MRT and bus to yl aunt house.got off.it was raining and i no umbrella.then got this kind auntie who ask whether want share umbrella with me and accompanied across road to under void deck.i think she was an old bus auntie from pri sch.i was so gan dong.OMG,THANK YOU AUNTIE;Dthen go yl aunt hse.used com while yl half do hw.then i gtg so we go downstairs.bought ice-cream and biscuits.go bus int.walked home.

two days of fun.yay.tomoro,sjab.urgh.*trying to smile**coughs*
"oh god please bless me.too young.ok,im being dramatic.sorry.""OH PLEASE BLESS ME!"
yup.said it.please dont make tomoro horridible;D

ending my story.ILOVEPEPS,
nicole;)))