doing somethin wrong.saying something worng.feeling something wrong.being the wrong person.

im blaming the person who created the "follow ur heart" thing.fcuk. really moody.is it the pre MYE stress, PMS or stress from my heart.dunno.dont feel like talking.shite.wts.fcuk.ok im happy vulgar-ising my post.wow.now just feel like going to aus.anywhere out of sg to escape any freaking probs. im not emo.just frustrated and tired.still havnt sold sjab keychains.shite. great.
sometimes i wonder why im even typing here.its dead here.welll,im venting all my anger out.cant yah see.cant wait til MUMMY's BDAY.i will give her a big hug and kiss,thank her fr having me in 9 mths plus in her "tummy" and accepting my tardiness,tackiness, and stupidity.
love her loads.she is the one who means alot to me.
suddenly i thought of jason derulo.ohgawd. he's superhot. he dances mad and so awesome.
argh.waves,throw me away.

rest the panda eyes,
nicole;))

dotdotdot.
science project is shite.loadsa hw.and mye less thn 2 weeks away.
im so tired.i dont even know why im posting.

urgh,bye.
nicole;)))

thats why im me.the weird,crazy,freaky,awkward,sarcastic,blur,wth is wrong with me,talking to myself me.how awesome.im so crazzy!ok,wait,wad did i jus say?

these days,super hot!i hate th freakin weather.its insane. lucky no caught by chers. hehehhehehe
tmr can go collect my passport. thn night goin uncle's house for dinner.hmmm,nothin much to say.jus like crazy emotions goin up and down.who i blame again?puberty.hahs!im evilll.
kay now watchin AI.i jus noticed how cool russell brand is.he is damn funny.and gorgeous.AGH.

hahhhaqahahs.still got projects to do.man.and midyears nearing.hmm. you know that feeling you have when you know you are laughing in a weird manner but you really are feeling amused?weird huhs.thats wad it feels like to watch american idol.:D

anyway goin,
nicole;))

yes it was.the most unluckiest in fact.i feel freakin pissed since th morning until now.no im not suffering from PMS.im suffering from pissed-off-ness.

it started since walking to school.was crossing from mrt to other side. then this caucasian guy on bike was cycling and shouting "woahh!" so loudly and rude manner.yea,it fcukin pissed me off.there were probably a few others crossing same time as me but he had to freakin scream at me.does he think im blind,of course i saw him coming.fcuk.and trust me,dying cus i banged into a bike isnt my ideal idea of suicide.if i see this dude again,i will smack his face and bike senseless. thats pissed-off moment number one.
rest of day,i was bugged by tht incident.in school,bugged by another matter.jus now i got bugged by th worst matter.and i've always denied it,avoided it and retreated from it.im a sucker at loveing people.yeah,i said it.laugh at me all you want,but thats a fact.im indecisive,i cant make up my mind.i jus end up making people wait,til they're sick of waiting.sick of me.great,i look like a bitchass now.i've carved a criminal of love outta myself.
now i shall end my pathetic-ness.

enough pity,
nicole;))

apart from hairdressers,the weather hates me.when i bring the umbrella,no rain.when i dont,it pours like hell.oh weather,you love me so much dont you?UGH

today was jus pure unluckiness.so i saw th dark and cloudy sky.and yet,my lazyness made me refuse th umbrella.halfway to school,started raining heavy.and pathetic me had to cover myself with the maths tb.then when i was about 5 mins plus from reachin sch,this middleage man drive in his car,stopped,roll down window and passed me an umbrella.i was like "thank you so much sir!"i was shocked,blanked out.but im so grateful that guy gave me th umbrella.at least there are compassionate and kind ppl existing in this world.thn continued to sch,on th way,dayana picked me up and drove to sch.THANKS DAYANA!hahahas.sch as usual.got freakin loadsa work.
tmr got prize giving day.have to wear freakin uniform and march and serve food.thats jus great.really.AGH.

anyway,need an early night.
night.
nicole;))

it hurts.real hurt.

this week.was shock.shocking.and all i felt was blaming god for everything.not bein religious here.jus felt it.i thought i could blive in him.but guess wat.i was proven wrong.no wonder my bro and i are anti-religious.anyway tok bout other things.
just got off the phone with yan ling bffl.its jus another of those moments where you feel so you talkin to ur bffl about crap.amazing.and its so fun talkin bout nothin but freakin crap. another HAPPY BDAY TO LOVELY VIVIAN AND JOELYN!:Dhahahas love yahs!hmm,im starting to really hate english.i dont know why.but gee,its killin me.
today had eng book review,i was definitely not prepared.and ms farhana still ask me go out.wow so pro.and i did shite.and i esp. stopped for a VERY long time before mentioning the lawyer part,it was crap.but the book i did about,MERCY by jodi picoult,its actually quite a beautiful book.its about th dude killing his wife because he loves her too much.honestly,how much and how far to wat extent would we go to for love.actually barely minimum.funny how love works.

anywaysim gonna sleep.
night peeps,
nicole;))

" Baby its over, We both know, Lets go
Forward, I love you but in a different
Way and i'll love you forever"
- Pixie lott~ Turn it up

this week was jus hard.im so emotional.bout everything.this is where you blame puberty and mood swings.aha.but man,everything jus felt so shite and fcuk.but it should be one of the best weeks.man,ms farhana give us so much freakin work for eng.and i hate it.MS SITI, come back!! wed,adhha walk with me to sch,HAHAs.thurs,sports day.so cool dont need run cus public duty.funny to say this,ILOVESJAB!hhahhahs.amie get better!after that lunched and accompany joelyn around lot1 and wm.IHEARTYAHJOELYN.so pretty and amazing girl.:Dthn night went out with family to watch clash of the titans.it pretty much bored me apart from the 3D effect and sam worthington>hot! hahahs,thats his name right?!hahahs.yst visit granny.i love her.i dont care.she means a lot to me.how could they do that.selfish,me selfish too.why is she there without us. then went to takashimaya had dinner.bought my mag and the book, dear john.and nope havnt start on book review.shite.today went to pay respects.should have jus stopped breathing there.convenient huh.went to get bro's new phone.argh*jelous*
just now listened to ke$ha video,i just realised how drunk she really sounds.which means the better.i like people who sing like they're themselves; e.g. drunk.
and now im listenin to justin bieber.i saw his video clip.and wow he's pretty.too pretty.and thats.well,not so good.aww.

why i keep breaking ur heart.i dont know why.but this will be the last time i hurt you.and i'll never hurt you again.its the best thing for us.maybe not to you.but it will.i know girls who deserve you.not me.im shite and it'll do you know good.so just move on.please.

someonegimmeanoverdose,
nicole.